And so it goes

I am a little emotional today. Actually, I have been for quite a few weeks now. We are back to that stressful time in our lives. Trying to Conceive. Or "TTC" as it is written on all the infertility blogs. Having a baby has never been an easy thing for us to do. Getting pregnant with Nic was tough and really not much fun. But we were blessed with the most wonderful child anyone could ask for! Our little Nicolas. Now we have been trying for number two. Ok, we thought, maybe the second time around would be easier. Ummm..nope. So now after 3 months of trying to no avail, 2 months of waiting for my bloodwork to come back with a normal TSH we started on a new med. Which I am pretty sure has not worked. At all. I am starting to feel that stress that I felt back in 2004 and I really don't want to feel that way again. I want to hope for the best. Eric and I always said that if we could get pregnant JUST ONCE and have a healthy baby we would be happy. That happened, and we still feel that way. All in all, if this doesn't work and we never have another child it will be ok. But it's still hard.